Thankfully I'm going back to the doctor this Friday, unfortunately the community college I'm at doesn't offer much in counselling.Though I feel like I've got nothing to really live for and my current T is only talking about mindfulness which makes everything too difficult to deal with right now and he doesn't know about my SI or darker thoughts as I'm too afraid that a psych ward would take me. Guess I'm too dumb to take help when I could get it anyways so maybe it wouldn't even matter what I said.