Right now, I just don't want to have DID, part of the time I think I made all this up in my head, but why?

Why am I like this? Why can't I get over this? What is wrong with me??? Why can't I just be normal???

I don't want to have DID! I don't want to think I have it, I don't want to discuss it, I just want it all to go away!

I am tired, I am just tired of it all....

Why did I ever go to therapy to begin with????

Now I am stuck in a mess... I just want it all to go away, I don't want to remember, I don't need to remember, I just need to get over this and move on... I really really think this sucks!

I don't like being me... whoever me is.....

I am not grandiose about this... I hide it, I don't want others to see it, I don't want them to see how crazy I am... I don't act out, I just don't want this, I just want it to go away and leave me alone.... why can't I just believe my life was normal... yup I had a normal life.. no big deal... I don't want to think about the past... yet I can't stop thinking about it... it haunts my dreams, my showers, my drives home.... I want it all to go away...

I don't want DID.... I don't think I have DID, maybe I am just crazy..... I hate this, I hate myself, I hate DID... I hate the acronym, I hate the word... besides half of the world doesn't believe in the diagnosis anyway.... I just want it all to go away.... I didn't ask for this...

I hate myself..