Well, I still plan to talk to my profs today(about the effects on my courses if I go into the hospital). But now I'm wondering if that will be necessary, or if I'd be able to stay here, just get my meds changed. Last night I felt my only choices were to go or to attempt. I don't know why I feel different today - thinking more clearly, though still not really wanting to live. I'm kind of expecting more that I won't be safe enough to stay here, it'd certainly be foolish to do nothing just because I feel somewhat better today. But I don't know. Maybe the hospital won't be necessary this time... I hope.