That's what I've been doing lately. Ive been trying to work thru my feeling. I've been emotionally repressed my whole life, I'm just trying to figure out corect reactions any more. I don't know. I do know one thing I'll never be like this with my kids. I wouldn't say I had a horrable childhood I am luckier than a lot of people and I am spending this time seeing that. Sorry lol I alwasy used to joke that I was the only divorced kid with out daddy issues I guess I have mom issues. Sorry just sucks when you've had to be the responsible not your whole life. The more I'm thinking about it the more I remever cut downs and snapping, taking care of myself and being told I wasn't as good as my sister. God forbid I asked for help, that's what got me into this situation in the first place.

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