I've been where you are, and recently. I went because my pdoc personally escorted me there. I was about a day from a serious attempt before he did that. But 3 days inpatient and 4 partial did me a world of good. I'd encourage you to go. You can sort out the other stuff later. I had to take a week's vacation from work to go, but I really felt like I had no other choice, and it doesn't sound like you do either. Keep yourself safe, OK?

candy