Going cold turkey off of meds is a dangerous thing! Your brain isn't ready to be running alone. By pulling the synthetic crutch out, it was on free fall because it's little chemical making factories shut down when we started supplying our own chemicals. A brain will have to kick start its factories after awhile, which means it's struggling. Don't hurt yourself hun, if you're going to quit, tell your pdoc and do it in a responsible manner. We don't want you hurt.