im sad...very sad because still no one believes me...and even the small amount who DO believe me cant and wont help me to do anything about it ...so awhile back ive been having pain oh for like 5 months now...chronically to the point where i take my boyfriends prescribed pain ( even though they are over the counter....they are at a higher dosage because of his neck thats the only reason they are prescribed) so like a few months ago i kinda threw a hissy fit because i was sick of the pain and people got mad so i shut up after the doctor told me i was a hypochondriac...but its days like these...the ones that practically have me in tears and severly limit my ability at my job that just make me feel crappy....it hurts...everything hurts....there is throbbing...and then sharp intense pain....and then there is more throbbing.....its not fun i assure you....and im just sad ...very sad because i hurt soo much....my joints hurt...my bones hurt....sometimes my bones will give out ..i dont know if its the bone but i will slip because my hip feels like it went out of place....or i cant use my hand at all....and grasping is a killer .....having to grasp patients...and grasp wheelchairs and grasp food...anthing that involves me grasping and holding onto tight is just utterly impossible for me.....but ive kept my mouth shut ....not said a word ....except to my boyfriend who lets me have his pain pills at night...otherwise i cant sleep because the pain is too great....sorry for my rant.....i just am really sad and it makes me really sad i cant enjoy things like i used to and i cant do things that i would normally be able to do...as for the whole doctor thing...id have to find a different doctor.... and doing that outside the family will be hard but i need to wait another two months before my insurance kicks in.....so trudging along i go....