Hello there, im new here in this forum and the reason why i thought of joining is because i am still confused with my life and i think i have depression...
So to start with, i am a 13 year old girl and i live in a boarding school that is considered a prestigious school here where i live.. I feel so burdened staying there and i just dont feel like myself... I want to quit from that school but people around me are saying as if i would never be successful if i quit.
To be honest, i had been feeling depressed since i was 10, i felt helpless and useless, i gained a lot of weight and either sleep too much or too little. I used to be out-going but now i just want to stay in my room, inside my comfort zone where people wont give me weird stares.. To tell you, i am the 3rd child from 5 and i do feel left out sometimes. Im not that close to either of my parents and i rarely tell them what happens to me in school and such. It is to the point where i get shy to ask them to buy something for me, even if it was just a biscuit, i would think twice. There was once, i wanted to join a baking class but was too shy to ask, i email-ed my mom instead. While my two elder sisters are creating their names out there, i live in a shell of shame. There was one time where my mom's friend was surprised to know that i exist...
So i thought, why bother putting me in a big school that needs lots of money when i cant perform? I dont see the point of anything because for me, i am sure i wont be notice until forever.