I feel for you all. Mixed is confusing chunk of hamburger brain

I saw pdoc last week for mania. Then in her office I'm having a crying spell and used all her Kleenex. Yelled at her What the F is this!!?? I thought maybe it was just plain mania gone bad but she said it's a mixed episode. Then I got mad she had no hand sanitizer eww... I'm still mad about about the med changes but I am starting to feel better & stopped the risky shot I'd been doing :/. Hugs.