there's nothing wrong about being nice to people, in fact its a gift if you can. some people couldn't be nice if they tried. about being lonely, i've been through that and still am going through it because i'm basically housebound and live on a dead end street in sort of a country like setting.I basically just socialise online, go out for errands and doc appointments, my husband drives because i can't. I know how awful it feels to be lonely, but for some reason i like it that way because of my mental disorder of bipolar and schitzophrenia.i need alot of time to myself, i do have a son and husband but my husband is usually at work all day. i enjoy listening to music alot it does help and so does watching tv.i hope you feel better, i do understand!!