On that note, I would just like to state that I did not go on a self-medicating spree.


That would've made things so so sO much worse. Alcohol amplifies my mood and my history with OTC pills would've deemed them more dangerous than psych meds.


You are in fact playing with fire, and yes your very wellbeing is at stake. Refusing to acknowledge that would just be a blatant testament to being really unwell.


So at least we know for sure you're not completely out of touch, you're aware that this is not a good path you're walking and you know you're unwell.