I have been diagnosed with bipolar for over 25 years. I worked all those years before diagnosis and after. I struggled through it all. It was like hell to me all those years at the jobs I had. They were good jobs, but my stamina and my anxiety worked against me.

I became physically disabled in 2008 and had to stop working until I get better. When it was time for me to go back to work, nobody would hire me. Mainly for the gap in employment. So I went and learned a new trade, but I couldn't succeed in that one either. It was a commission only job and I worked my butt off for 3 months and hardly made any money..that's when I realized that I get anxiety when I work

Now I feel like my brain is fried. I have no motivation for anything. No more ideas as what I can do and frankly after the last failed attempt to work, I realized how much I've changed and how low my tolerance has become.

I have been bottling things up inside and I need to let them out. Hopefully I will be able to do that here.

Thanks for reading my post.