I went through a similar experience and still wonder how such a horrible mistake could be made. But I'm in deep therapy again and this time there is good hope.
If it will be encouraging in any way, a huge amount of progress has been made in the past decade or so in psychiatric approach and theory. The psychoanalysts were very short on understanding and treating Transference and attachment disorders. Freud mainly treated wealthy neurotics and his silence-and-frustration style was appropriate for them. But, the old style, classic psychoanalysis fails to meet the needs of modern clients who often suffer from severe neglect and abuse. The new way is the Psychodynamic Relationship where it's a healing relationship through allowing the attachment problems to come forth with the fears and needs.
It's not your fault that you were abandoned by that T. Most likely both the therapist and therapy was wrong. I hope you will give another therapist a chance, but maybe you will need some time. Just know that there are compassionate, humane therapists out there who care enough to give you the time you need to reconstruct your life.
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