My home life was much different from yours, but I have the same feeling. I'm actually 35 years old but mentally and emotionally I feel like I'm in my 20's. My mom abandoned me at birth so my dads parents took me in and my dad sexually abused me from 5-13. My grandparents knew but didn't protect me. Right before my 12th birthday I contacted my mom and went to live with her. She sexually exploited me 6 months later so I went back to my grandparents and the final straw with my dad happened. They both went to prison at the same time in different states and I went into foster care until I ran away at 16. I've been on my own ever since. My feelings were never validated and to be honest, no one cared about how I felt or what my opinions were. I was a straight A student in school and won multiple awards for my essays and I also won awards for playing the oboe in Jr high. No one cared or praised me so I think I started to stop growing emotionally. I just tried to stay quiet and out of the way. I married and had my son at age 22 and was a good wife and mother. I just have done everything the complete opposite of how I was treated. The marriage only lasted 2 years and I became a single mom. That's when I got to experience my teen years. Dating, going out occasionally, talking and flirting on the phone. I've progressed past that point to where I feel like I'm around 25. That's how old I was when my mother died. My boyfriend, well fiance, is 24 and we live together. Both of children live with the other parent. I have BPD and PTSD along with severe anxiety and depression and I've been in therapy for 4 years now. She agrees that I'm stuck emotionally and in my thought pattern at a much earlier age than I really am. We haven't figured out a solution yet so if you find something that works, please private message me or update this post. Thank you for sharing. I really thought I was strange for experiencing this. I'm glad you are starting to experience more and grow emotionally. Just remember that you are important no matter your inside or outside age!! Keep up the good work!!