I can also relate to how you feel. I have BPD, PTSD, severe depression and Agoraphobia with panic attacks. Unless I'm going to therapy or the doctor, I'm always alone. Well I live with my boyfriend but he's gone a lot. When he is home we've started working on getting me out a little at at a time. I still don't like crowded places like shopping but I'm find going to his parents house. Now the part about people pleasing, I don't currently have that problem but I did pretty bad a few years ago. My therapist said it most likely is a result of being abandoned and neglected as a child. You constantly do for others to be noticed and appreciated and it feels good in a weird way for people to need you or rely on you. I would guess you never really had anyone do those things for you. And I would also guess that you have really low self esteem and no sense of self worth. That is true in my case. Seeing a therapist was the best decision I ever made. I've only been seeing her 4 years but she has helped me so much in realizing that I am important and today I love myself. I'm OK with who I am. YOU ARE IMPORTANT too!! Thank you for reaching out. I'm a new member but everyone here really cares and takes the time to actually read the posts and answer genuinely. And just reading some of the other posts has helped me tremendously. If you ever need to talk or just vent or whatever, feel free to private message me. I promise to help out as much as I can or just listen. Good luck. You've already taken the first step!!