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Originally Posted by GreenMoss
I feel like this too. I'm also not attracted to a large amount of guys.
Being a virgin has been part of my identity for so long it is kinda scary for me to think how I would view myself without it.... that probably sounds crazy.
And I'm also afraid that if I lost it for the sole purpose of losing it, I would then find a man that would have been worth the wait but me sleeping around would end up being a deal breaker for him. What is that; magical thinking, superstition or lingering puritanism.  |
That does not sound crazy in the slightest. I'm 22, and have struggled with sexuality my whole life. Namely, I've struggled with my Sexual Anorexia. That means that I'm still a virgin, and if I have any say in the matter, it's going to stay that way!
My issues with sex were causing me to have a lot of strife in my life. I attended sex therapy session for a few months, which helped. I learned to open myself up a bit more and not be so afraid of my own desires. At the exact same time, I had the first opportunity in my life to safely experiment sexually with someone.
I tried some...things, but never actually had sex, so, still a virgin thankfully.
I'm happy I put myself out there and tried something new. But what I came to learn is this;
My Sexual Anorexia is part of who I am. So too, then, is my compulsion to remain a virgin. It's been a part of my identity for so long that has become a core part of me. I don't know who I'd be without it. And you know what? I don't want to know, and I'm fine with that.
So, different modes of thought (I actually WANT to stay a virgin lol) but it's absolutely understandable for your virginity to be a part of your identity. Trust me, you're not crazy.
