Hi Miss_Understood,

I wasn't at the main service but I did watch some on television. I was overwhelmed by that point and could barely stand to see another crying face or hear another name read.

Your experience of that time is something that I hope you have talked about or will talk about with professionals. The 'support staff' of which you were one are often the ones last dx'd with ptsd.

Mum said that she was relieved there wasn't any public thing this year as well. She still is uneasy when any jet comes in low.

I read your mention of an upcoming air show. I'll go post in that thread now.

Please take care and don't feel anything is wrong with you for having an especially difficult time during an anniversary like this. I wasn't directly involved in any way but from having flown in the very day after and being so close to all that was going on at the time it is an event forever etched in my memory.