Sorry you feel this way-many of us here can sympathize in regards to social anxiety & shyness. As for the weird part hey I'm weird & I like it My issues do give me plenty of challenges but being "normal" does look a bit boring. You can always practice your social skills on us-one thing I did that helped so much was to join a local book club & hiking group-those are 2 of my favorite passions & it made it easier to connect with people because I already had something in common. Take care