Welcome to Psych Central (PC). Sorry to hear you are feeling hurt as a survivor of abuse. There are many caring people here at PC and you also might try a therapist that specializes in victims of abuse. A psychiatrist can prescribe medication that can diminish the symptoms you are feeling.

Going numb is a survival mechanism. Now that you are older and can be apart from your abuser(s) it could be helpful under the guidance of an experienced therapist to unravel this web of suffering.

You may find the forums of interest

Survivors of Abuse - Forums at Psych Central

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