The truth is, there are tons of people walking around that aren't even depressed that "fake it". They want people to think of them a certain way, so they pretend. - Being depressed, unfortunately, you have to "fake" the happiness. No one wants to hear it. It gets old. You hang around with happy people, you are in a better mood, you hang out with someone who always complains and threatens to kill themselves, it is just depressing. - I get it, I don't live every day, I exist and no one wants to hear anything unless I can say.. oh tell me about YOUR problems, or here is what I can do for you. That is the way people work. It stinks. I have a lot of anger and resentment I carry around along with the fake smile and the "chipper" attitude I fake all the time.