You do not have to make yourself do anything!!

I hear a lot of 'shoulds' coming out of ya. That's when we try to please others and 'fool' ourselves.

Personally I do not think forcing yourself to watch would be helpful.

Instead I think bawling and hiding sound perfectly okay. In fact giving yourself the permission to hide and cry and 'breakdown' might be very liberating.

This is coming from a woman who has spent time hiding in the back of closets, under desks, crammed in the corner between the bed and the wall, etc. I'm an old pro when it comes to hiding and freaking out.

And I think the hiding and freaking out need to happen before one can face the scary things. Let yourself grieve and cry and wig out or whatever it is that right now you 'feel' you shouldn't do.

I think you can count my vote in the freak out and hide column!

I have so many items near this computer that are from your province. I think of that place with great fondness. The people there are the best I've met on this planet thus far. Wacky too, in the good way, those Maritimers! (ma is one so I've been raised with that odd humour that is only found out in the wind swept Maritimes)

With enormous support,