I have a psychiatrist appointment on Tuesday but he will probably put me back on Abilify and that did not help with anything. It did bring me down from my mania, but it made me feel so terribly angry and agitated, and gave me such serious akathisia that I just had to stop it. I don't want to be forced to sleep or to stop my creative mind. I am drawing again, writing, and have such wonderful plans to make money, and I just got out of a depression, I just want to live life finally. I am just worried that if I don't get "fixed" by next week I may be put back into the hospital. The doctor in the hospital was pretty clear he wanted me back if I wasn't sleeping, which the most I have gotten is 2 hours, average 1, with one night of 5. I just can't see why it is bad to try to use up all of my energy in a decent way. Walking at night near the house isn't causing anyone trouble. And I gained 13 pounds from a surgery 3 months ago, and so now I lost 7, which is good! Because I don't need sleep, I can do my work at night and I have time for a lot of other things during the day. And I am still eating around 1000 calories so, that is good.