Hi, I am new to this forum. Thought I'd give a my history: physical abuse from father (he had explosive rage; I suspect he was on the beginning level of borderline personality spectrum). Mother was shut down and detached due to early bereavements and did not intervene or comfort when I was beaten up or verbally abused. I relied heavily on dissociative defenses up until quite recently when I made progress with therapist. Eating disorders in adolescence. Depression and anxiety, especially social and health anxiety . . . Worry about illnesses and spend inordinate amount of time reading about them. A feeling that life is treacherous and so much can go wrong looms large in my mind. My recent fortieth birthday, my uncle's death due to terminal illness, and father's skin illness all precipated severe panic disorder two years ago. This drove me to seek a therapists and I am now reaping the rewards. The release of repressed childhood memories have kind of given me a rebirth. There is still a long way to go still. I hope I will give and receive much support here. Does anyone here have health anxiety/somatic disorder or other related issues? It'd be helpful to connect. BTW I am a forty year old Woman from India. Lived for 15 yrs in US and planning to back to US in a few yrs.
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