Well I got into strength training for a time, with underwhelming results. I really made it a priority but both my strength and my aesthetic gains were abysmal. I lost motivation after a while, and now I just do a couple sets of push ups and pull ups every day.
I read in many sources that stress kills muscle growth, and this may have been a factor. I am literally stressed out all the time. Even when I wake up in the middle of the night, my obtrusive thoughts of hopelessness instantly invade my mind and my stress levels rise above the roof. And this is how my days are spent, 24/7.
Also, the only way of stress release for me is masturbation. If I see an attractive woman, I feel intolerably bad until I can masturbate. Even this relief lasts only a few minutes, but there's simply nothing else that can give me a moment of peace.