I can relate all to well. My grandparents died before I was born, or all 1-6 years after my birth. Youngest brother died when in I was in early 20s (i seriously shut-down......) Other brother.. well I know he loves me (but I can't depend on him - even for basic phone calls... seriously mental health issues..) I'm not to judge with my own issues, and but sure his are due to our childhood....

I've always been such an independent and strong person. There is one thing to feel lonely...another thing to feel alone.... They are different... they are...