Not sure if I should bother to keep posting but it helps me. So feel free to ignore as I imagine many will.

Caffeine high last night, I haven't slept for over 40 hours. I was not consciously looking to induce a high but my mood was better today. I'm not tired, wired, racing thoughts but positive thoughts. I layed awake in bed for 4 hours last night, just watching and being entertained by my thoughts. We had a long drive today and I would say 70% of the time I was conversing happily or daydreaming watching my racing thoughts. The othet30% of the time I was ruminating but every time I noticed it, I challenged and redirected thoughts.

Physically I am in quite a bit of pain , whole body. I know it needs rest and zero caffeine!

The wedding is tomorrow and I'm feel positive but waiting for the crash as I am well aware this could be anxious energy that will burn out so I hope I don't crash too hard