I thank you for sharing this with us. I am glad you are able to express yourself through writing how you feel. I have found it to be very helpful..

Reading this reminded me of so many things from my own life. I would like to share a bit with you. Yesterday in therapy I said this to my T "There is someone out there preparing for me and he’s not ready for me yet. Maybe we are getting ready for each other now." reading about you write about "finding the right guy," reminded me of this. This is something I believed prior to meeting my husband. Maybe believing it will help you find the comfort and acceptance it brought to me.

I hope you are able to comfort in everything you do.