That sounds like a pretty bad mixed state, which for me are the most dangerous times because i don't care if i get hurt or die, and i have agitated energy to burn. The result is reckless behavior, drinking, drugs, sex, whatever. During mixed states i'll have a few hours or a day of purely depression or purely hypomania, but then it all jumbles together again. It's the most excruciating and dangerous mood state for me. My thought is get in touch with your pdoc and try to put some breaks on this before you end up getting hurt, either purposefully or by accident. Take care...