hi there .. i am a 33 yr old professional and single. For the last 5 months i was in a relationship with a man that told me he was getting seperated and going to divorce his wife. He told me he loved me made future plans, had me around his 2 yr old twins where we took in public everywhere and we were around his work people and it was obvious we were a couple in public and out.He said he was scared as he had kids that were young and loved them and so afraid he would not get them all the time since he was the primary caregiver since she traveled all the time. He told me that they had a friendship and that was it but that she is a very high powered figure in our town and he was concerned that she could get him fired etc. Ya know i beleived him loved me BUT i kept telling him get it over with and you will be happy and take the steps.. he said he would talk to her and tell her that he was unhappy but she would say i had no idea etc..Beleive me this story gets even better.. and when i say that i mean i just am a disaster right now. So i had a friend who has a gal that is somewhat gifted psychicly. This woman from the begininng told me that this man is genuine in his feelings but that he has no intentions on leaving the wife and that he does have a relationship with her. Well being a dummy that i am i told him hey this gal said this.. he said i dont have a romantic relationship with her but a friendship and im not happy and that lady is nuts.. well i started to get addicted to this ladies predictions etc and also i wanted to know what was going to happen as everytime he was gonna tell her that he was gonna leave he whimped out said he doing this in a methodical manner to make it be her idea and then just about a week ago he said well i asked her if she had someone since i told him this gal had said something to the extent as that she has a guy at work interested so he said it peaked his interest and she told him no then he said her blackberry was locked and she had never done that before. I was wondering well why does he care and he said because i wish she tell me so i can do my thing. I dont know?? ugh. Anyway, last wednesday my phone rings and it is him.. i miss the call and call back like 3 times seeing that i thought maybe he didnt hear it or music n car on or something. Well nothing back that nite but then in the am he calls and says he has all his clothes in his car and his on his way to a hotel as she kicked him out and said for the time being lets lay low etc. He starts crying about his kids.well what was interesting is this lady that i been talking to about the predictions said look for a breakup in the next 20 days and a new female energy is around.. he hasnt done anything but he may have intent and flirting. She also said that the wife knows of calls but not everything. He calls me friday and is sobbing saying she knows about us but i lied and said it was a phone affair.. but then she found receipts for drinks at a local bar.. i mean come on im not dumb and buying that so could she? Also, he said as long as she doesnt know we had sex and im like u wanted to leave anyway and he said it is all too real to me now and im freaking as i cant lose my kids. he said he went to an attorney on tues so who knows but he says "look i love my kids more and i want to tuck them in and wake up with them". So i cant see you anymore and also no calls texts get rid of pics of kids as she will kill us if she sees that etc. He even went further to say that her lunch on last fri she asked him to go on was going to be because she wanted to split and take care of her assets etc. So i went all weekend no contact upset wondering what is going on to come in on mon to work and have him call and say look i told her just a phone affair she said she gonna call so i ask did you have sex with her and he said yes i did and i will do anything to keep my kids that her emotions are all over the map and that one min she crying one min she mad and then after she said she used me? Please bare with me as i am almost done here but then i said who is the other girl.. and he came right out and said a girl at work that was just texting flirting and it was an ego thing and that he wanted nothing with her but liked the attention. I have had that happen and i can be honest and say i have done it as well. im not perfect. He says he going to counseling with her and will live a lie to keep his kids but still loves me. He isnt saying he will continue with me and what interesting is he says she knows all about me but that woman hasnt called me? I desperately want her to call as i think she should know but i dont want to come right out and tell her i want to do it in a manner which she just knows.I dont want to hurt her. we are all hurt but i kept telling him tell her so she can be happy and have a life too. Why do people stay together for the kids when kids know it is a lie? Right now i just keep bawling, im on freaking xanax, zoloft and under suicide watch with my family, friends. I feel like i been lied to and i feel bad for the wife. I thought he loved me. The worst thing is.. i still love him and want him YET when i think of having him i get disgusted. I told him i hated him yesterday and he was crying saying he still loved me that nothing changed but he loves kids more. I have compassion but i need help on this matter. Im sure there will be some that thinkk i got what i deserve but i was told he was not happy and going to be leaving. so Now i am going stir crazy wanting this woman to call me and i want to call her yet let her know it me but let her know that her husband has had a SEXUAL affair and said he was in love with me and not a darn phone affair.. i am curious.. would anyone beleive a phone affair? Please help me.