If what ever you are thinking of planning to do makes you feel better emotionally - that is the way to do it! Your assurance should your good feeling, your passion and relief. Of course you should shine your light! That is why you were born! You were born to be yourself, and not to please everyone in your life. The problem is that since humans take so long to mature, we need parents to take care of us. So we think " if I don't what they want me to do, they will stop feeling me and I will die." And worse, we think that parents know better, what is not always true! Just because they were born before us didn't make them better than us. It could be, that we were born to teach them better! You can be the light so they will follow. That is why you grow up like that. So understand that and know that you are here to shine. Take that leap, rewrite your story. Because in reality - only you can! I believe in you. Because I was in the place where you are, and I can you - there is away out!