Sorry for the confusion, the post is in regards to myself. I haven't been able to admit directly that I have anything wrong with myself but I find it easier on an internet forum.

@Gus1234U, Great answer. You seem quite knowledgeable in the subject. I agree with the concept of a triggering stimuli. In my high school days, I was a good looking, athletic young boy, but I was extremely anti-social and hyper-narcissistic. Girls were into me, but I lacked the social skill to go anything beyond an innocent kiss. I often felt like I was living a double life. Around girls I was this shy boy during the day, but at night I was this crazed drug using/selling maniac. I would stalk the streets at night until the early hours getting high, selling, or stealing. Perhaps the lack of any role models played a role (at the time I was living alone with my grandmother from age 13-16) I got off on the fact that no one ever suspected me because I was so "innocent" looking. Because of this behavior I missed out on a lot social aspects of high school (never went to prom, never played school sports, etc). After graduation I spent two years lying around smoking marijuana, using pills, drinking alcohol and living a parasitic narcissistic lifestyle. I decided I wanted to go to college as I was around 20 at the time, and live a socially-fulfilling life before I was to grow out of being a young man. The thought of being around many young single girls motivated the "good" part of me to go to junior college and by the next year I was a sophomore at a great university. However, this stimuli is very shallow and superficial, when in reality a normal person would go to college in order to receive an education and obtain a degree and secure a job. This never crossed my mind. In highschool I hadn't even contemplated going to school (lack of long term goals) and rarely showed up for class. But this triggering stimuli, you mentioned, motivated me to apply myself and with ease, I got into a great school, completely abstained from substance abuse (aside from recreational alcohol) and made many many female acquaintances/partners. This is were the extreme manipulation and lack of empathy began to really show.

I was aware of the difference between a psychopath and sociopath, but hesitant to throw around the psychopath term. As I do show essentially every trait on the Hare Checklist, I do not have violent sexual fantasies, I have no hatred for any humans and I wish more than anything to be happy and get married and get a job. But at times, this task seems nearly impossible to even contemplate as I am so accustomed to an implusive antisocial lifestyle. When I was around 14 I had an MRI of my brain performed by two lovely young Stanford graduate students. They greeted me and were extremely friendly and compassionate before beginning. The entire procedure took about 15 minutes, and after it was concluded I went to ask them how my brain looked. I will never forget the completely utter fear I saw in their eyes when they looked at me. I was so young at the time I thought I had done something wrong. The vibe I got was this kid has the brain of a murderer, I could feel it in the room. I then had to ask them if everything was okay? And one of the girls barely managed to say "Yeah, everything's okay", while the other girl just stared shockingly at me. It wasn't until age 24, 10 years later that I realized what they saw, a young psychopathic brain, perhaps for the first time in real life, I will never forget that.

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Thanks bud. In your experiences, has the condition continued to manifest itself and grow stronger over time? In my experience this is true. I can go periods of time, going to church, getting a beer with friends, doing well in school or work, followed by longer periods of substance abuse, thieving, assaulting, not showing up to work, just extreme societal norm and rule breaking.

Let's see, in regards to violence:
-no animal abuse (I have been the perpetrator of the demise of small animals as a child but, not entirely on purpose)
-no extreme deviant sexual fantasies
-been in many physical fights and shouting arguments with male strangers
-tried to strangle mother around age 9
-tried to drown another male child age 10
-would fight with friends so often at school they had to set mats out and regulate our fights
-have fantasies about abusing females even to the point of serious injury but never to the point of their demise

Another factor that is very scary is my decision making. I know the difference between right and wrong, obviously, but I consciously make the bad or evil decision every time, without question. The only thing that keeps me from acting on these bad things frequently is the fear of prison time. My condition comes in waves and goes into remission then returns stronger, I believe I am coming back to my senses during 2015 and it feels good, 2013-14 was pretty dark. I have been extremely lucky with law enforcement as an adult, I have avoided the frequent encounters with them I had as a child, and when they do occur I raise little suspicion.

One night I was driving around a big city, extremely high on pills, I saw three attractive blonde girls all alone in need of a ride at around 3:30 am. I made an illegal turn asked the girls if they wanted a ride and they happily got in my car. Soon after an officer pulled me over and witnessed what I had done. He wrote me a ticket for my illegal driving and continued to inform the girls to be safe and that I could be a Charlie Manson type character. His jokes amused me but I flipped the role to make him look like the bad guy and once again the girls saw me as the victim, when in reality they know nothing about me, something I would get pleasure from. I would drive around high at night and pick up girls looking for rides from bars or clubs up on a regular basis, and would regularly get phone numbers, kisses, money, etc. They trusted me based on my innocent looking face/mask alone, very scary (9/10 girls would get in my car without hesitation) My best friend is a psych-major and he is the one who initially informed me and that he has long suspected psychopathology. From my experience, it is absolutely essential for this type of personality (the one who wants to blend in, the high IQ psychopath) that he develops a lifestyle structure that is secure and minimize any factors that may bring about symptoms, which in return lead to actions. I could go on for days about behavior and not to mention the trance like state one experiences once the feeling presents itself. You essentially lose yourself, your identity, maybe the lack of a conscious during this state is why one makes these horrible choices, whatever their outlet may be.

Keep in mind, this is only based off personal experience. I have never studied psychology, nor psychopathy in detail, nor have I ever went to seek help from a professional and this is all from first hand experience.