Insurance was just one issue - but in itself says forget doing anything then - because I WILL NOT have any info like that given to anyone that is not treating something - that is all there is to it - and I can not really afford to even survive (always cutting something short to stop someone else from complaining) - so if there is a way to do that, and still pay rent, food, T.V, phone, Internet, Car insurance, Gasoline, exc. on roughly $700 a month - I would love to know it......

And I do take a medication for anxiety - but I'll admit it doesn't work too well. But last time I tried to do anything about that - I got handed additional drugs, that I put in the garbage because they broke other things - they worked, but I WILL NOT put up breaking anything in order to achieve that. There was one other medication mentioned, but I refused to even try it because that one would basically require me to feel as though I have the doctor looking over my shoulder about it all the time - and I won't have that either (that is THE reason I refuse pain management as well - and I know that dose not help either, but...)

Just can't stand being watched too close either - really, people think I'm kiding, but the few times I was in a medical hospital - and it was an IV required - I wanted them to just start the ting (since I don't know enough to start it myself) give me what I need - explain how to use it...Then - I go HOME and do it....WITHOUT an RN or anything else parked there......