You aren't alone. At least not here. I know that depression is one of the tougher aspects of bipolar disorder but remember that this is a cycle. It will pass. Can you talk to your doc? He may be able to help you through and possibly out of depression and back on your way to a happy place. But you are most definitely not alone. We have been there and know your pain, and know how this affects a person. I'd hug you if I could. ((hugs))