(((((((((SweetSunshine)))))))))) I'm sorry you have to go through so much. You're in a very difficult time.
You've got a lot on your plate. Health issues are the absolute worst because they can be so scary. You can get through this. I know it seems like too much for you to handle right now but you ARE handling it. You're going to be okay.
I guess there's nobody to help you out with your Dad right now? It must be hard to feel so bad and scared for yourself and then have to worry and take care of your Dad on top of it-'cause then you have the guilt of not wanting to do it. Grrrrr!
(((((((((((SweetSunshine)))))))))))))
Keep talking with us. You can do this! Take it one step at a time. You'll get your vacation but stressing yourself out with worry isn't going to help you to get there, okay? Try to stay strong and brave. Keep repeating to yourself that you're going to be okay-you can do this-everything is going to be fine. Then after you finish saying that-inhale very deeply. Keep doing that throughout the day.
I'll be sending up prayers for you and your Dad. (((((((((Sweetsunshine's Dad))))))))))))))))