I get you Apurin150mg, I've had a few incidents like that in the past (but none recently) and i remember one incident when i felt this fear so powerful i pissed myself and i felt so ashamed and yeah - dealing with aftermaths both with yourself and other people (seeing a girl from a class when i was worked up wandering campus at night pulling the earrings out of my ears and telling her i wasn't mad but the person promised i should call them but i tried to call them and... I've never quite known how to talk to her afterwards