I'm afraid that I'm going to be a serial killer. It's on my mind a lot. I'm pretty sure I'm a sociopath, which is ripping me to shreds. I want to live a normal life, get married, have kids, all that ****. But I don't think i'll be able to. Not if this keeps up. I can't blame it on the ocd anymore, something's wrong, far beyond anxiety. I don't want to be like those monsters that do those things, but I'm not right in the head. I need help. To answer a few questions, yes I'm in therapy and on meds. No I don't have plans to hurt anyone, but I get urges to. Do you think I need to be hospitalized long term? I don't appreciate or care about anyone else. I really want to though. I made my mom cry yesterday, and didn't feel an ounce of guilt. I should've, but didn't. My parents insist that there's been times where i loved and cared, but I can't remember any. What do you think about all this? Hospitalization, or no?