You know what, scorpiosis? I only read the beginning of your post that talked about stepping forward and talking about what you felt toward a person you were attracted to physically and emotionally. But then when I came back and read about how you are experiencing such great joy and satisfaction with family, friends, your personal fitness instructor and therapist, I can only say that I am impressed and happy for you!
Keep on going and make sure you come back to show/tell us how things went.
We all need some positive stories!