So, I've been having job problems. Had to move back in with my parents. Extremely humiliated. Working on getting into schools and starting a new career, (yes I need the degree,) will know if I got in anywhere in the spring.

Extremely depressed. Queer. Living with conservative parents. Have a boyfriend who also lives with his, is even less employable than I am.

This boyfriend starts telling me I am too obedient to my parents. He's trying to help - I know he is. But thanking them for helping me through this time by respecting them is one of the few vestiges of honor I have left.

My shame at being in this situation has been turning into anger at him for bringing it up.

Showing that to him would not be acceptable. Have explained the way I feel to him; I think he's more worried about me killing myself in the future than how I feel at the moment, when he's telling me about the problem. I can understand his worry, but the emotion lingers.

Need a way to deal with this healthily, then get on with constructive things.

Any quiet activity will likely make me stew even further. Concentration is difficult; books out of the question, games and movies possible but likely will fail to grip. I do not feel comfortable with friends at the moment; fear I might snap at them. Also just... don't want to feel crushed by their will and the respect I have to pay towards it. And I seem to be acting like a help-rejecting complainer before any help is actually offered. Nevertheless: I'm trying.

Any advice as to some things I could try?

Thanks very much for your time and help.