I can see that lizzy! lol
I don't think I am paying for love....maybe it is in the way you look at it? I would balk at the thought of that too!! So I can imagine what you are feeling.
I told my therapist earlier this week......the therapy relationship is soo flawed! You do everything you can to promote an attachment from your clients, from me....but it's not real, it ends and then the pain can be worse. I think that upset him, but he acknowledged it. (I am in the process of termination though, soo....)

ahhh therapy!!