My Doctor DC'd my Klonopin when I told her that I was in AA. In the past, when antidepressants were increased I became manic and violent. There's no real effective medication for BPD, so I just have to learn to deal with it.

My sponsor and I have been texting back and forth. She says that she only gives suggestions and that I don't have to do what she says. I'm going to have to tell her that I don't want suggestions. But I'm also going to have to stop telling her my problems. When I talk about my problems, I'm letting it out and then I feel better. I'm not asking for advice usually. Sometimes people think that is what I want. I know that they are trying to help, but that's not the way to help me. The way to help me is to just sit and listen and allow me to BE. I will eventually work out the solution myself.

I think I will tell her I just need her help working through the steps. I don't need suggestions about other things in my life.