Wow! Thank you for all of the replies! Definitely have to let them all sink in before giving feedback! I just know I don't usually "fight" her... but now I feel like I am. Something, and I'm not sure what, made me feel more vulnerable all of a sudden....

Lickety, yes, marriage issues (continuing) brought me in, but I should have been in therapy many years ago. Born to a 16 year old mom, never knew my dad, somewhat absent mom, marries abusive man which led to whippings, hittings, throwing kids against walls, locking in basements, told how worthless pieces of **** we were....food behind a padlock, etc etc. After about 8 miserable years together, my mom decided to file for divorce. Why? Because he raised a hand to her....ONCE. Yet watched her daughter being beat for years. At 40, I still have issues with that. So, this T got a lot more than she bargained for when I showed up at her door! I was once one who couldn't be touched, didn't love anything, and just hateful and angry. I have turned into the complete opposite, but sometimes I still question motives and such.