insertname, I can so relate to your story here. I have also been where you have been. I lost my career to mental illness. I struggled before and during my career but at least I had some purpose. I feel lost now that I am on disability due to depression. I am very disappointed as well at how my life turned out. It isn't irrational to feel a huge loss because of what mental health disorders have done to our lives. It is ok to feel what you are feeling. It is grief. It is loss. It is so very sad. I really feel for you.

There is always hope, though. I feel that there is always a remedy to a problem. Thanks for sharing and helping ME to know that I am not alone.