I can understand how that feels. I really hate when I'm in a tight spot and my best friend in unavailable and my wife isn't home. It's frustrating, its scary, and you really do truly feel alone. One thing that I do when it gets bad, simply just to get away from the house is go for long walks. The air outside is calming, and I feel like nothing can really hurt me. I take my dogs with me and just go. Is there a park nearby you can go walk around in?