Thank you both. I feel somewhat in control of myself right now and feel like I could manage my mood for a while longer.

I'm on 400 mg as well. It worked for a little bit, but not anymore. I used Benadryl for years, but not anymore. Sometimes I'd take up to four, and now for some reason, it hypes me up more than it calms me down. I've taken doxylamine succinate (the sedating part of Nyquil) instead of diphenhydramine. It's the strongest you can get over the counter. Sometimes that will placate me a little, but the quality of sleep I get on it is terrible. I've tried Trazadone, Ambien (Made me do too many things IN my sleep!), various other prescriptions, all kind of herbal "sleepy" or "relaxation" teas, Valerian root, Melatonin, hypnotization apps, listening to calming music, etc. They all seem to work sometimes, but not always, depending on my current state. It seems like my brain is bound and determined NOT to sleep sometimes. If I can just give into it and enjoy being up, I don't mind it so much. I know I should sleep, but sometimes it's just pointless. My brain is still going a thousand miles an hours and I don't feel tired. If I try, I just get really irritated with myself. It feels like everything inside me is buzzing with all this energy.

I've contacted the human resources center where I am. I see my therapist there, and as soon as I can get in with the psychiatrist I'll see her there, too, but tonight I'm going to talk to someone else from there and we'll come up with a game plan. I hope it doesn't involve hospitalization, but if so, I've decided I'll go voluntarily.

The irritability seems to be down right now, and I just feel pretty buzzed and happy, but that might be a bad sign. Feels right, though.