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Originally Posted by bubbles00
I feel like such a burden to the world. I feel so pathetic and useless. I’m and insult to humanity. Why do I even exist? I have no purpose. I just can never seem to satisfy anybody.
I also can’t stop crying. I can’t get out of bed. I can’t concentrate on reading anything (have to read everything 10+ times to make sense out of it or tell people to talk slowly).
I just hate myself a lot. I want to hurt myself but I’m so tired out of my mind to get up and do something. I feel like I’m such a burden to people. I feel like crying all the time. It’s hard for me to even hold back my tears (and it doesn’t even matter where I am; I just start crying). I cry myself to sleep basically every night. I feel so ******.
I’m so ashamed of who I am. Sometimes I get those ‘moments’ when I realize that I’m real and then I think to myself, “What have I done to myself?”. I’m just so weird. I’m constantly mad at myself. I just can’t stand myself.
I always hope for the worst things to happen to me. Waiting for a car to hit me or something. I just want to die. I’m such a hassle for people to deal with. Everybody hates me. I agree with them though – there is nothing good about me; I can’t even name one thing.
So fed up of myself. **** my life.
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I'm sorry you feel like that. I don't really have any words of advice but I know exactly how you feel because I feel the same way and it's terrible. I always feel like I'm a burden to everyone and my family and the world would be better without my existence. I really don't have any value for my own self as a human being. Hopefully we both can find a way to feel better about ourselves sometime near in the future.