Thank you all
The med change was rocky at first. I took the week off of work doctors orders. That helped me deal. I think this is what baseline must feel like. I'm not ancy agitated doing risky business anymore. Rage has subsided.
And I don't feel blah or bored or sluggish. I'm not overly happy sad or angry. A little lonely just cuz my lifestyle & friends (boys) are changing.
I can see now I was manic. I think this last episode bumped me over to bp 1. I'd been bp 2 for a few years. Just processing it all. It is what it is.
A little annoyed pdoc was right. Not sure why. Maybe that she saw what I couldn't see.
And I now understand what T said: I may have bp, but bp does not have me.
. Thanks all. Sending love.