I really appreciate all the feedback! Hot topic! I'm glad I posted about it. Many of you have read, I have (what I think is) a GREAT T. She has pulled things out of me I never thought I'd speak, she has helped me to open up in the outside world and give myself the voice I never let myself have. She also gives me a safe, supporting place to talk. I don't know why I'm feeling like pushing her away right now. It just hit me overnight, like a ton of bricks. I have a session on Monday, and I really have no interest in talking. I'm happy to listen while she talks...but I just feel like shutting down for awhile. I know that's not good. The only change we had is a change in topic....she's talking about my self loathing, and how I can learn to love and respect myself, and things I need to do to get there. That is one of a small list of things I just don't want to speak of right now, and she tells me I can say "I don't want to talk about that," but I haven't yet, to this point. The only time I voiced something like that was when she was talking about that blasted "inner child" of mine. That's another topic I don't want to go to. I had a really tough week last week.... just depressed, emotional (crying on the inside, not the outside), and then a crucial session got canceled (beyond her control) on Thursday. This bickering started prior to that, and I was fully preparing myself to discuss it on Thursday, but then the cancelation really threw me for a loop. She couldn't help it. Family issue. But still..... She hates me saying this of myself, but I was being selfish. I was ready to talk. now, I just want to shut down again.