I am sorry you feel there has been trauma in your life. It is not a sign that you have to do something about it but you can, especially if that makes you feel better.
Why not talk frankly about how you can't show emotions so what can I possibly get out of this therapy to your new therapist. By the end of the session or the next session the therapist should have goals of the therapy and you can ask how that fulfills your need.
Your last questions are very significant:
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How do you manage to not let trauma bleed into every part of your life? How can you stop it holding you back?
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I think that there is a common assumption that going through therapy will give me a fulfilling life. What I have found is that it brings me to the point where I can start to build a fulfilling life.
I have had abuse, maybe not like yours, but it sapped my self-esteem and put me on some sidings that went nowhere. I got over it in part by experiencing it and in part by letting go of it.
In part it was saying okay enough focus on the pain what did I come here for? What do I want to do with my life? These didn't happen over a weekend. It took me years, but starting to build a life was another milestone on the path to healing.
Feel free to private message me if you care to.