Well, I'm living right now. I attend school, but last semester I did want to kill myself and almost got send to the hospital (like psych ward). This semester is alright so far. I feel like I have to fight to be in control all the time though. It's ever single day of my life I struggle with the want lose control. I don't know if I will. I think of suicide often even though I don't want to think such thoughts.

I don't want to lose the frail thing I call life at the moment.
I also, don't want to lose control again.

Lillyleaf