absolutely terrified of it in fact. Scared everything will fall apart if i peel back even a small layer, if that makes sense. I need to find a therapist that understands this and will stick with me no matter what, and one that will realize when im sabotaging and call me on it.

I must admit im a little let down that she hasnt even bothered to call me back to let me know one way or another wether she will see me again, its like she cut me out completely and just forgot me.

*more sighs*